I'm exhausted - I've been working on this site virtually every waking moment for at least the past three ofr four weeks sometimes from 6.30 in the morning till gone midnight - I need sleep but there's still so much to do!

I'm having extreme formatting problems and my computer seems to hate me. Oh and my S key has a stutter and this was a new (well, reconditioned) keyboard been too busy to take the laptop to bits and remove the keyboard again - can't cope without it right now.

Coupled with that the washing machine broke a couple of weeks ago and we can't afford a new one - shouldn't have been a major issue, Paul ordered new bearings which arrived sometime last week... he's an engineer so fixing it wasn't going to be too much of a probelem - yeah right! He'ss cut himself to shreds trying to get at the right bits and after all his efforts and depsite the bearings and housing being shredded it's still broken! My kitchen has washing machine guts all over it, there are dishes piled almost to the ceiling because I've been busy with the website and now I can't wash them because I can't use the sink

I have wet bedding in the bath because needed putting in to soak but now I can't tumble dry the matress protector because the washer is also the tumble dryer.

So... tomorrow instead of sleeping (or more likely working on the site) we have to take half a disembowelled washing machine to Park Royal on the bus and tube so Paul can take it into work to try to fix it. I really don't need this! Why is it that when you think you've got a break from all the horrible things life throws at you something else goes horribly wrong???

Life feels like everything is a huge fight at the moment and I just don't have any fight left.

My brain hurts and I need sleep but I can't switch my brain off which makes sleep somewhat difficult, too tired to eat thiss evening too - deep joy!

Sometimes I wonder if life could actually suck any more than it seems to at the moment - but then I worry I'm tempting fate by asking.